Rani Float. Fruit Drink Review. (Pineapple, Strawberry Banana, Peach & Mango)

I was looking for single canned juices and I was searching through the grocery store and oh look ones I haven't tried yet! I never had even heard of Rani before and I decided to grab all four flavours. This is a fruit drink with real fruit pieces.

I shook it as the can said and it was foaming at the top upon, hence the float part (it was difficult to open tbh....jeez lol) and there were real pineapple pieces in the drink! It wasn't the best pineapple drink I've had but it was pretty good, my sister liked it despite not liking pineapple. I rate the this one 2.5/5. I didn't mind it but there was some bitter sips that would've made it a 3 if it was sweeter.

I was nervous with the strawberry banana, if it was going to be good. IT WAS. I really liked the strawberry pieces in it and I sadly didn't shake it well enough and there was no foam. I really liked the flavour though and thought it better than the pineapple one (it may or may not have been because I didn't shake this one but I hella shook the other one haha) and it was the perfect amount of sweet and it was an equal tasting of strawberry and banana. I rate this one 3.5/5 and I would've given it a 4 but I didn't shake it.

There were high hopes for the peach one, as I normally like peach juices. The first few sips were amazing but after that, it went meh. It was just a weird flavour and taste going forward....I did make sure to shake this one but I don't think shaking it helped or not shaking it would've. I was going to crown this one my second favourite thus far but no, not even that. I rate this one 2/5.

The last flavour is mango, I saved it for last as mango drinks are usually my favourite. This mango one though, was not. The first few sips were nice but the rest of it was soggy tasting. I didn't really like it, even the mango pieces were meh and it lacked flavour. I rate this one 1.5/5.

So in conclusion, these were alright and for the cost I guess it's fine if you want a quick cheap drink on the go...sadly they are sold warm which would probably taste even worse. So to rank them from favourite to least favourite it would be:

1. Strawberry Banana

2. Pineapple

3. Peach

4. Mango

El Monterey. Meat Lovers Breakfast Wrap Review.

I was dying for some breakfast wrap or sandwich and OH LOOK they suddenly sell these at the grocery store! Yay!

I should've grabbed more than one but I wasn't sure how I would like it. They are two dollars a piece though ouch. I cooked this the time stated but it was so cold, I continued cooking it only like 10/20 seconds too long and it burnt my mouth and I couldn't properly enjoy it BUT it was really good, there wasn't much meat to be a meat lovers, compared to the overwhelming amount of cheese and egg haha. I really liked it though and if I had cooked it properly the first time, that would've went better. I rate this 4/5. I want to try out the other ones too!

My First Time at Just Love Pie. Chicken Pot Pie Review.

I didn't know about this place but I'm glad we went in. A little pie shop with adorable interior and very friendly staff. I ordered the chicken pot pie, they warmed it up for me and it was piping hot. I am not a fan of pies for their crust but the top crust was delicious, the chicken pot filling was delicious and I loved it! I would go back and order it again if I was craving chicken pot pie for sure! I rate it 3.5/5. I would give it a 4 but I didn't like the rest of the crust but I don't like crust so...

Moxie's Grill and Bar. Shrimp Linguini Review.

I did have this shrimp linguini as leftovers and I did have to re-heat it. The pasta though was lacking seasoning and flavour, this was more of a salad you'd eat cold. I thought it was okay but it was too oily and even with cooking it, it never really got hot. I wouldn't eat it again unless offered to me and I was hungry. I rate it 2.5/5 overall but the shrimp was good.

Subway. Meatball Marinara Sub Review.

So yes, shamefully a foodie as myself...I have never before had a meatball marinara sub. I finally got one, I was craving one (somehow lol) and I decided meh why not?

So, to be honest....I wasn't crazy about it, it was just okay. It did more burning of my mouth than anything....I just have a hard time with meatballs in pockets or sandwiches, they usually hurt me really bad and cook my tastebuds.

Overall the flavour was just fine but I didn't like it much, it also didn't agree with my stomach and I almost threw up afterwards but it's not the sub itself but it didn't help either haha. Besides the fact that I was sick I rate the sub 2.5/5. I likely wouldn't get it again unless it was that or something I really hated.

Oh! Ricey. Chicken Instant Pho Review.

I reviewed the beef instant pho on my blog (you can search pho) and now I am reviewing the chicken instant pho.

So I am at a toss up on which one I liked more, I normally go for beef more than the chicken but I think overall the chicken one tasted better, I prefer it in cup form but this turned out pretty well. The flavour was good, the noodle of this one tasted better than the noodle in the beef one and that I'm happy for as in the beef one the noodle was my least favourite part. For this one though all the water soaked up, well almost all and it was hard to get any broth but for the beef one the broth was amazing and I loved it!

I rate this one 3.5/5, I wish there had been more broth left over so I could've rated that.

Word Of The Day #84.

Obsequious

Obsequious adj. Obedient or attentive to an excessive degree. “The obsequious service resulted in an excellent tip.”

Amy's. Organic Vegan Teriyaki Bowl Review.

So I was taking a look at frozen dinners/entree's I have never had before, I wanted to mix it up from my usual. So I decided to try out Amy's teriyaki bowl. It is vegan and organic but I thought meh why not give it a try? I just love food overall haha. It was pricey of course but I grabbed one to review.

The ingredients here are:

I didn't like the tofu much, it was just bland as per usual. The vegetables were delicious and the organic brown rice had no flavour but the sauce was SO GOOD! Overall though I felt it tasted as organic usually does...earthy. I would not likely get it again I rate it though 3/5.

Jack Astor's. Steak Fajitas Review.

So this was my first time going to Jack Astor's. I did not pay for lunch but I cannot grasp how expensive it was for this dish. To be honest, it wasn't even worth the price, I would need more for it to be worth the almost 25 bucks. I thought it was pretty good but I almost choked on the steak. I also had an accident and burnt myself on the hot pan.....the experience and food was meh at best. I rate it 3/5 for the food 2.5/5 for the price and 1/5 for the experience as a whole. My hand still hurts.

President's Choice. Chicken, Bacon & Caramelized Onion Flatbread Review.

So my little brother decided to purchase this and give it a try, he gave half to me. This is a PC flatbread: chicken, bacon and caramelized onions.

It was one of the grossest things I have EVER eaten, the flatbread itself was really sweet, most of the bites made me almost gag. Luckily I was hungry and I powered through. The toppings weren't good either...it literally tasted like trash. I cannot describe how it tasted but I hate every minute of it. I rate it 0/5.

Subway. Steak and Cheese Flatbread Review.

I had a huge hankering for steak and cheese on flatbread, I had never had theirs before but I needed it. Since they no longer have the prime rib (which was amazing) I went for this.

OKAY BRO, OKAY....This is the greatest thing.....ever. I was almost crying over how delicious this was and if you want to re-create this...HERE'S HOW:

Have them warm the flatbread before adding any toppings. After warming, add mozzarella cheese, steak, green peppers, onions and sweet onion sauce. THEN you ask them once all the toppings are on, to warm it again a little bit, so the cheese can melt.

BOOM. You got it.

It was so delicious, as I said I was almost crying. It's so amazing especially hot and I would get it again for sure. I rate it 5/5. Hands down.

Oh! Ricey. Beef Instant Pho Review.

So I was in the mood for Pho but of course at the grocery store you can just grab instant, I had never had this one before so I decided why not? I got one beef and one chicken (stay tuned for the chicken review) and it came with this cute little fork (I actually hate this fork, it's too short and I burnt myself stirring the soup, I did also happen to be blindingly angry at this time, due to other stuff...so that didn't help aha) and I thought it was a neat feature, good if you're on the go or just lazy and don't wanna grab a real fork.

The flavour of the noodles were bland and had a weird aftertaste, the meat lacked flavour but the broth OH THE BROTH WAS AMAZING! I really loved it. I don't know if I would buy this again but maybe if I was in the mood for Pho that's cheap haha. I rate the soup overall 3/5. The noodles 2.5/5 and the broth 4/5.

Wendy's. Dave's Single Burger and Hi-C Orange Vanilla Pop Review.

I normally get a JBC or a Baconator when I go to Wendy's, I have even tried out their various chicken sandwiches (Search Wendy's on my blog for more reviews). This time I decided on the Dave's single, they also come double and triple I believe.

I decided just to go single this time, I don't need hella patties, in case I don't like it. Well I did, the burger was good as usual and the toppings were crisp and delicious. I am overall pretty happy with it and I rate the burger 3.5/5.

I also tried out the HI-C Orange Vanilla pop. I wasn't sure what drink I wanted when I went and I had never tried any of the orange vanilla drinks so I decided on this one. I loved it! It screamed creamsicle and I know people who use this for a float, like a fast food hack. I am interested in doing that but they don't sell ice cream. I really liked this drink and I rate it 3.5/5. I would've picked higher but I wanted more vanilla, I wanted the orange sweeter, less tart but it was pretty good.

Word Of The Day #83.

Acrid

Acrid adj. Having an irritatingly strong and unpleasant taste or smell. Angry and bitter. “An acrid odor filled the room.”

Rice A Roni. Chicken Review.

I had reviewed the fried rice Rice A Roni (you can search for it on my blog), so I thought I would try out the chicken flavour. It wasn't as bad as the fried rice but it wasn't great either. The flavour isn't good, the texture is odd and it's annoying to cook. This is literally like starving in a bomb shelter food. I'm not even sure if adding other ingredients would save this, how can you screw up rice and "special mix"? (As they call it). I rate it 2.5/5.

Campbell's Chunky Soup. Baked Potato with Bacon Review.

So I have a thing for potato bacon soup, this though is baked potato with bacon soup but I thought since I hadn't tried it before, I would give it a go. So the smell was great, smelled of real bacon. The soup itself though I wasn't keen on, the flavour was just bland and odd tasting. I didn't like it and I rate it 2.5/5. It was just meh and I'd eat it again if I was starving.

My Experience With Lurasidone.

I am currently trying out a week of Lurasidone for Bipolar Disorder. I am going to be going through each day and adding notes to how I'm feel emotionally and physically; with time stamps. I am in no way educated on this kind of stuff, nor am I good at putting together a professional review or blog post. This is just a log of my experience for the week and at the end of the week, I will be mentioning if I will be continuing the Lurasidone.

I am currently taking 20mg for the week but if I continue, I will be taking 40mg (as the 40mg is covered by my drug plan). If I continue to take the Lurasidone and bump it up to 40mg, I will make another blog post to test out a week of that and record my notes. If I continue with the Lurasidone I may update every once in a while with things regarding a long term use.  I take one pill a day with food. I take it an hour before I get into bed at midnight. If I am home at midnight I will take it then but if I am out over night, I just have to take it before I fall asleep or at 11; whichever is the case for that day and situation.

With the Lurasidone I am able to continue taking my prescription pain killer (Mefenamic Acid). I should avoid alcohol or drugs, as it would increase the drowsy or dizziness I could experience with the medication; as well as increased blood-pressure and increasing other symptoms.

Some have a drink in moderation and very many hours before or after taking the Lurasidone. For this week I will not consume any alcohol but if I were to continue the medication passed this week, I would wait at least 2-3 months of taking the Lurasidone before I try consuming alcohol but I would do just one shot and see what happens; to record my experience with that interaction.

While on the Lurasidone I am NOT able to have grapefruit or grapefruit juice as it would cause an interaction that could put more medication into my bloodstream and risk too much medication in my system and chance of side affects. Luckily I do not eat grapefruit or have the juice often, if at all.

So now I will get into the notes I have recorded with my experience. I hope you not enjoy but find insight or take something from this post weather you are taking the Lurasidone, have before or looking into taking it. Thank you. 

(I will be updating each full day at a time, hopefully once a day....I will try to stick to a schedule but nonetheless I will end up updating this blog post with each day weather I do it each day or not. So, I'm sorry if any delays come up.)


December 7th 2017: The First Pill.

11pm: I have taken the first pill and not too long after taking it (Approx 30 minutes or so), I have grown drowsy and a bit lethargic but in a more peppy tone.


December 8th 2017: After Taking First Pill.

7:30am: I have woken up half an hour earlier than I needed to be up, I have a moderate headache. I get up to use the washroom and I go back to bed but I struggle to return to sleep. I have though fallen back asleep for the final 10 minutes.

8am: I wake up for the day and still have the pounding headache, so I takemy Mefenamic Acid. (2 pills at 250mg each)

9am to 11am: Throughout these 3 hours I feel odd but less anxious and less stressed than usual. I feel a little mellowed out almost, it isn't a bad feeling though. I feel a little quiet inside, my mind is quiet, for the first time.....ever. Though my head does feel stuffy like full of cotton but not sick and I just want to go back to sleep.

12pm: I still feel mellow but weirdly upset now, for no apparent reason. My mind is not racing and it's nice for a change but I do also feel weirdly disconnected and unlike me.

3pm: I am feeling nauseous (besides the help of food I ate, I have a digestive disorder so most foods upset me) and I am still emotionally upset. I still feel very tried and still unlike me, kinda like a part of me is missing. I wonder: is this what "normal" feels like? Not to be panicked, not to be stressed or anxious all the time, not to have constant instructive or racing thoughts? I feel less happy but at the same time, less sad. I feel kinda empty, I don't know. All the bad thing about me, made me....me, so without them, who am I? I have had these "struggles" for a very long time, so it's all I know. So or me to feel like someone else, it's kinda weird. I hope I ge used to this. Reflecting over this, makes me cry. I don't know why I'm crying, I'm just nervous and sure, I can still cry but can I still genuinely laugh?

5pm: I am currently watching funny videos, in hopes I can laugh. I have been able to thus far but it also feels like my brain isn't sure what's funny but my mouth does. Hm it's kinda like I'm learning to laugh for the first time. I don't know how to explain how that feels but it's certainly new. I don't feel nauseous as of now but the sleepiness I still feel.

10pm: I feel less weird but I'm nervous all my laughs are fake, they don't sound as genuine. I'm less sad but still sad. Hmm....who am I? What am I? I've laughed once or twice genuinely but I feel 'like those people who laugh during a movie just because others are but they don't find it as funny as it was'. That's me. I'm already sleepy, have been most of the day though. I'm used to tired with no energy but today I have energy yet I'm still tired, I don't know how that even works.....nothing I'm feeling thus far, makes sense to me.



December 8th 2017: The Second Pill.

11pm: I have taken the pill and the moment after, I have built up a hunger. It's not likely related but I had not much of an appetite today or lately due to some unknown sickness, that I've been dealing with for two months now. I eat of course with my Lurasidone, so I scarf down my food and wish to the heavens for more. I'm a glutton especially when my appetite returns. I have been so tired all day due to not sleeping enough last night/this morning. So I will be plenty tired when I get into bed in an hour, as I've been dying to sleep.


December 9th 2017: Day After Second Pill:

8am: I slept through the night and didn’t wake early like I did the night before. I had a really weird dream but I have been having weird dreams lately....I mean overall my dreams are weird, all throughout my life. I pass out though and sleep like a rock. I wake though feeling tired as always. I always wish for an hour extra of sleep, though I’m not sure that would change anything.

9am: I feel more like myself today (thus far) and I’m feeling less sad and more happy. I still have a raging appetite and I’m scared to go grocery shopping. I only have a strict budget though, so I am hoping my appetite cools down by then. My mother had said she noticed a change, she mentioned that prior to the medication, I laughed at everything; I over-laughed and she saw it as a coping mechanism. I though just love to laugh, laughing feels amazing....well it used to feel amazing. I feel a little better about laughing today but I still feel unsure about what’s funny. When I hear my own laugh now, it doesn’t sound like me. I don’t recognize it. I’m hoping over time it’ll come back to me and feel familiar. 

11am: Jacksepticeye is the only thing up until this point, that has really made me laugh. I still feel weird about laughing but he helps and I am forever grateful for him. Who knew a YouTuber could do so much, just to help me relearn to laugh.

7pm: I am stuck into hobby stuff and just watching Youtube videos. Some things I have no motivation for but others I’m getting done. Emotionally I am too zoned out to make a comment on it. Today is uneventful. I am though still watching Jacksepticeye and having a great time. It’s quiet and I’m not yet sure what I’m doing tomorrow but we will see.

9pm: I catch myself fake laughing, during times that old me would actually laugh. It’s kinda sad and I hope with time it comes back and that I don’t lose all of me or the good parts of me. Hm. 


December 9th 2017: The Third Pill. 

11pm: I took my third pill and I’m so far not drowsy or sleepy, like I have been each day prior.


December 10th 2017: Day After Third Pill.

12am: I'm still not drowsy or sleepy, I am more awake than I have been the last few days and it’s interesting. I hope I can fall asleep at a reasonable time tonight, as I have to be up at 8am and I want to get enough sleep.

8am: The sleep was a struggle to get into and I have woken 20 minutes early. I’m feeling more down today than lately, I’m just feeling sad and lonely. I always had felt (before the medication) that people didn’t actually like me and that those who did, wouldn’t stay. I just spend a lot of time alone, in my daily boring routine. Like I am most comfortable here, as I don’t know what I wanna do going forward but I often am sad because I think: ‘is this all there is?’. And I know that’s not the case but some days are slow, physically and mentally slow. I’m hoping that throughout the day it gets better; that it turns around. 

10am: I have been overcome with dizziness and having not eaten yet, isn’t likely helping. I am eating now though, so let’s hope it helps. 

2:pm: I'm still feeling a little dizzy and a bit nauseous now. I find since being on the Lurasidone, I’ve built up a stronger sense of smell, to gross smells. I'm not feeling great. 

6:30pm: I has been uneventful again today and my moods are just meh. I am tired of course and unsure of how I feel. I'm just rolling through the motions this time. I have a slight headache but the other symptoms I was feeling, are basically no longer. 

8pm: My raging appetite has returned haha, I have been almost bing-eating. I had read (and maybe here have mentioned) you can gain 10/15 pounds while taking the Lurasidone. I thought it will be just due to the medication but it’s likely going to be my food habits! A bit of both likely and I’m happy about it. I have lost 6 pounds recently due to the sickness I mentioned and I have a feeling with this one gained pound today, I’ll gain more...well I hope for more; I can’t wait! Emotionally I’m tired right now and physically could sleep.


December 10th 2017: The Fourth Pill.


11pm: My appetite has gone back to normal. I’m tired but not tired. We will see when tomorrow comes.



Dec 11th 2017: Day After Fourth Pill.

12pm: I’m still not all that tired yet but when I do sleep, I sleep deeper than before the medication. Supposedly I’ve been talking more in my sleep lately. Hmm. I haven’t done it often growing up but I do more as an adult, especially with taking the Lurasidone, it’s been more often than usual. 

8am: I have woken 20/30 min early. Again. I hate it. I wish I didn’t have an alarm to wake me up and that I just woke on my own. I’m not too tired but unfulfilled sleep wise. Emotionally and mentally I’m just fine today but a little on the sad side. 

10am: feeling anxiety for no reason, this hasn’t happened much in the last few days since starting the lurasidone but I don’t like how I feel.

12:30pm: I feel the most "old me" today than I have since I started. I feel depressed like before but it’s going to be my first Youtube recording for the week, let’s see how it goes. 

8pm: I'm still feeling a tad depressed, video recording went fine. I’m just feeling bleh today, almost under the weather. I’m going through some stuff in my personal life, so I’m down about that. I was hoping the Lurasidone would help me feel less shit but I guess not. I’m bummed I can’t have a drink. I find with this medication it doesn’t make me feel BETTER it just makes me feel like crappy. Hm...I was hoping it would help even a little bit, to raise my mood. I know it’s an antipsychotic but I was hoping being less psychotic meant being happier. 


December 11th 2017: Take Fifth Pill.


11pm: I’m in a pissed off mood, I’m so done with today. Everything has been stressing me out. Today sucked. I hope tomorrow will be better.


December 12th 2017: Day After Fifth Pill.

8:am I slept okay, I never sleep well though, so I don’t aim for that. I’m in a better mood today than yesterday, thank god.

10am: I have errands to run and I don’t want to go out. I was hoping with the Lurasidone, I would feel less crap and feel better with more motivation....nope. I mean it’s not the worst but I have to upload a video before I go out. So I can power through my work and hope I feel better.

2pm: I’m feeling a little sad but not the terrible mood I was in yesterday. I don’t have the energy or motivation to go out and run my errands but I have no choice.

4:30pm: I’m not feeling great, I am eating a late lunch and I am freezing cold...due to the awful conditions, my cheeks hurt. I still have other errands to run that I don’t want to. I’m tired and want a nap so bad. I have very little energy but too much to do. Emotionally I’m a little down.

7pm: I fell asleep for a little nap. I wake feeling bleh, as I have been with naps since I changed my sleep schedule. My sleep schedule is now 12am to 8am, in bed by 12. It used to be that I’d stay up till 5am and wake at noon. So since this change, I’ve been doing it for about two (maybe three) weeks now and have taken a nap twice. They aren’t fulfilling but if I need it, I need it. Emotionally I’m unsure how I feel, I just woke up. We shall see. 

December 12th 2017: Take Sixth Pill.


11pm: I didn’t feel any weird or different things upon taking my pill today.


December 13th 2017: Day After Sixth Pill.

12am: I am tired and struggling to fall asleep. I needed the nap earlier, so I'm struggling now. 

8:am I woke fine but have a little headache. Emotionally I’m a little down. It didn’t take me extra time to fall asleep, just regular time but with a hassle.

9am: I am still feeling down, and I'm trying to listen to music to make me feel better but most of it makes me feel worse; I don’t know why. I have tried mixing up the genres and it's not helping.

11:30pm: I have a headache, I miss sleeping in. I’m a tad sad and lonely today. I have many errands to run, including what I missed yesterday. Today’s weather I heard is better, I sure hope so. 

3:30pm: I haven't eaten yet today, I feel lightheaded and weird....well....I just had a piece of chicken and I’m also very tired. Emotionally I’m fine but my eyesight is going, along with the bad feelings I feel right now; I feel bleh. Personality wise I feel more like me today.

5pm: I feel better as I just got food into my system. It seems when I’m on the Lurasidone, I react weird if I haven’t eaten or eaten enough; I end up feeling almost like I’m drunken. After having just ate though, I feel fine. I’m slowly starting to get myself back, my laughing is a little better today and my mind races still, like old times. It felt great. 

8:30pm: I went grocery shopping and just got home, I am so tired, so sore, just overall exhausted. I’m feeling emotionally better. The walk there and back, gave me time to reflect on stuff and how I feel. I have found that, overall, compared to before, I’m happier. 

December 13th 2017: Take Seventh Pill.


This is my last pill, I am seeing my doctor tomorrow. I am going to tell him how it has been and that I would like to continue the medication. I will be making a new post for the 40mg dosage and post again for a week. After my shower, I have felt a lot better, showers to me though always make me so tired. I’m ready for bed.

December 14th 2017: Day After Seventh Pill.

8:am: I have a pounding headache and I’m feeling awful, health wise. Emotionally, I’m fine and mentally just tired. I wish I could sleep a little longer. I’m going to be seeing my doctor today. I took my mefenamic for my headache. I’m hoping it goes away, as I’m hanging with one of my BFFs today. I want to be in better health. I feel more like myself than I had been when I started out the Lurasidone. It took my body 5/6 days to feel normal, like me again. We will see what today brings.

12pm: I’m feeling alright but bummed out I have to go to the doctor. I like going but sometimes I’d rather not go, I have to though and get more medication. I just wish for things to be easier, I’m also hating the winter, already. I’m feel bleh today, kinda sad and for no reason. I mean could be because it’s the time of the month and because I’m just not feeling good. I could go for a nap but I cannot, I have to leave here about 2:30. I am looking forward to see my one BFF though, so that’ll be worth the stresses of going to out. Things aren’t going well just so much is going wrong, I’m already fed up with today.


5pm: So I have seen my doctor, he gave me 2 more weeks of the medication at 20mg. He said after the two weeks, he will give me a prescription for the 40mg BUT to just cut them in half, so I’m not upping the dosage. I am in a pretty good mood, I got cookies when I went in. I’m also in a better mood overall, despite my headphone jack not working properly and all else that went wrong today. I’m content. My doctor noticed changes and I’m happy to have them.

So this concludes my Experience With Lurasidone. Since I am not upping the dosage to 40mg but cutting them in half, I will not need to further make a post. I will though be making a post to my bodies' reaction to alcohol, I am starting off with just a single shot and seeing what happens from there, though I will not be doing it for a few months. I miss alcohol so much, already. So until I make the follow up blog post, with alcohol reaction and overall thoughts and feelings to the longer term on the medication, thanks for tuning in. 

I hope some of you found this "useful?" or at least just an interesting read. This has been a really crazy week and when it comes down to it, it went a lot better than how I was doing before I even started the Lurasidone. 



November 12th 2019: 

I had been experiencing severe anxiety attacks where I would stop breathing, have heart palpitations and chest pressure. I went to the doctor today to get him to up my dose of 20mg to 40mg. I will start the 40mg tonight and update you as soon as things come about. 

11:40pm
I feel a little pressure in my chest as I’m about to go to bed. 

November 13th 2019:

7:30am: I just woke and might I say this was a struggle to sleep. I did more tossing and turning than I usually do and this was also the first time in two years that I’ve struggled this much to sleep. I woke many times during the night, it posed as quite a struggle; I’m hoping tonight goes smoother. Oh and chest pressure is still there, in a constant feeling but less of a pressure than last night. I’d also like to note I did have a strange dream and a tiny headache, the dream though being strange isn’t out of the ordinary just thought I’d mention as much as I can as I go. 

9am: I feel mentally fine so far but I do feel tingles and a weird blanket of lethargy. We will see as the day and following days go on how my body physically and mind emotionally feels, it has to get through the tough part to get used to it but it’s only day one so we will see what happens; I wonder if it’ll be like the first time. 

10am: My feelings were the same as an hour ago but add this weird tipsy feeling, like I legit had a drink. I feel a little funny in my head but my headache I think is gone. One thing that has changed is I have lost my appetite, which may or may not have happened the first time; I don’t recall BUT regardless, it’s gone.  

12pm: I though find I still crave foods not cause I’m hungry but because I’m still gluttonous. I still have the urge to eat even when I don’t want to but can’t, when it comes to meals I struggle. I also find so much trouble in motivation, more than usual. I hope this passes because I gotta do stuff still. I know it’s only day one but I hope when and IF things get a bit more difficult, it won’t be toooo much worse than this. I’m hoping that this small change is dosage is a small change overall. I thought I’d do this 2019 update as I had spent so long with the same dose and I wanted to document how I feel upon changing it. I think I’ll be updating it for the first few days and then again later on, to see if I see a change in my anxiety attacks.

4pm: I am slowly coming around to the idea of eating but I don’t love the idea. I feel a little odd but no longer tipsy with a headache and a little chest pressure still. We will see if things change through the day. 

10pm: So I was put in a spot where I had to make a quick choice and an amazing choice and I didn’t even let anxiety get to me. I said screw off anxiety and I took a risk. I was just full of adrenaline mind you but it was great. I think the meds are already shaping me into a better, less panicked person. 

11pm: So in two weeks I might be short a week on pills due to the pharmacy, Im going to call them next week and discuss this with them. I’m so stressed out it’s posing as difficult to try and sleep I’m mad. 

November 14th 2019:

8am: I slept better today than yesterday but had a second weird dream. I wonder if in time they will change, maybe my brain just needs to get used to the medication change. Emotionally and mentally I feel fine this far and I think my appetite has returned. 

9am: I called the pharmacy to fix the issue, so things will be right as rain  


11am: got a headache, I jinxed it thinking I was headache free. Maybe this isn’t related to the change in meds, who really knows.

4pm: My appetite has returned with a burning fiery passion! I’m so hungry it’s wild.

10pm: I know I haven’t gotten into the swing of this med change or maybe I have I’m not sure. I feel kinda normal, just watching out for anxiety attacks and overall how I tackle anxiety; it’s quieter in my brain. 


11:30pm: This dosage change hits me quick with exhaustion, I feel funny and drained of energy. I’m off to bed, let’s see how I feel tomorrow.

November 15th 2019:

11am: I feel funny but maybe I’m just getting sick, it’s almost dizzy but I’m not sure. I was wondering if my emotions would change as they did when I first started them and they so far have not, I am able to laugh and cry the same it’s great. 

12pm: I have again lost a bit of my appetite. It is lunch time but I’m not thrilled about it . I still feel funny.

10:30pm: The day has been pretty bad but I’m happy to say I still have all my emotions; well most of them. I still feel a little odd but that’s okay.

November 16th 2018:


11:30am: I think I’m back to my usual self, I do still have a weird lingering odd feeling in my brain but I don’t know what that’s really from. I thought I’d mention I had alcohol yesterday and it was almost immediate heartburn. If you want to know my first tests with alcohol search my blog for the second Lurasidone part. I still got drunk quick off a small amount, the interaction between the medication and alcohol has still made me a lighter weight than ever before, I mean compared to me prior to ever being on the medication.

3pm: I’ve been losing and gaining my appetite and it may be the medication or the side effects from my other medication and maybe even sickness. One thing I want to mention is the last few days I haven’t had a single wave of feeling suicidal like I normally do especially at night. I hadn’t really been paying attention to it but I plan to keep an eye on that today and going forward. Emotionally I’ve returned to my weird waves of sadness...sucks. 

November 17th 2019:

11:30pm: so I’m almost back to my self, back to my usual struggles with mental health and physical feeling. I will be ending the updates here unless something changes. Oh one thing I’d like to mention that with the dose increase my sleep is in the same except with the increase I am more awake before bed and struggle more to fall asleep; I hate it and I don’t often have this issue till now. So that being said, I hope you got some insight to the medication and it was interesting or helpful to you. Thank you.

Note: I didn't mention this but I have bipolar and I dealt with manic episodes but since being on the Lurasidone, I have not had any which is fantastic.

October 16th 2021:

I have been taking the medication almost 4 years now and overall feel a lot better, I have very minimal problems with sleep, a lot less depressive/manic episodes, easier to handle anxiety and less feeling suicidal. I am very happy I took the medication, I couldnt imagine my life without it now.

January 20th 2024:

I've been on the medication for just over 6 years and my last dose increase was just over 3 years ago. I'm still happy to be taking it.

I just went to my doctor about an anti-depressant but he said it wouldn't go well with the Lurasidone, just to increase this and not take anything new. I'm going from 40mg to 60mg on the 26th. I regret not doing it years ago but my shrink did not tell me it would help my depression (he didn't really believe I was depressed in the first place), just the bipolar and anxiety but my family doctor said it should help.

I wanted to update you guys, in the last few months of 2023 and into 2024 I've been doing pretty great, high sometimes but not in a manic way but genuinely, after leaving abuse in my relationships, attending therapy, growing as a person all the time and finding religion. 

I just need to tackle this depression, that's been made worse by burn out, neurodivergence, dealing with trauma, Peter Pan syndrome and personal beliefs about my existence. I had worries when I FIRST stared Lurasidone that I would be a robot and I was for a while, so I have worries again, I don't want to lose what I have now, my spark but maybe nothing will happen, or if I go back into robot mode, I will likely or hopefully bounce back. I could use a break from this high, so we will see. I will update again when I take the 60mg Friday night.

January 26th 2024:

I have taken my first 60mg dose just now and I'm off to bed, I will document my experience and give an update tomorrow.

January 27th 2024:

Went to bed with chest pressure and a bit of nausea but it's not much different to my usual, as I experience anxiety and acid reflux or heartburn sometimes when I go to bed; I feel though discomfort in my ribs.

I slept fine but I woke after a long sleep, I slept longer than I usually do but the two dreams I had were good. I woke feeing very tired, this is what happen when I oversleep. I also have a bit of a headache.

Emotionally and mentally I feel pretty fine, hard to tell behind the sluggish I feel. I will continue to document my experience, as the medication has changed and will change within me as I take it, it's only been a few hours.

The nausea and headache had continued through the morning, I had also since gotten a bit dizzy. I have PPPD so that could be made worse by the meds. Though into the early evening I was feeling a bit better as I took a Gravol to help my symptoms.

I went to bed feeling a bit unwell again but less severe than last night.

January 28th 2024:

I woke feeling fine other than tired and quite lightheaded. I woke earlier than yesterday morning though but still slept in longer than I'm used to.

With this new dose increase I have more dreams it's pretty neat, so far they are random, cool and nice dreams; I hope it stays that way and I don't have bad or not nice dreams (as I sometimes would have them prior to this dose increase). I found I'm dreaming multiple times in the night, where I normally have just one or two.

Mentally and emotionally I feel pretty fine, just a bit bleh as I wake overtired and almost drunken. I'm hoping to do and surround myself with things that spark joy, as I have yet to feel that since the increase and losing or temporarily losing that is one of my worries. Speaking of losing joy, it's gloomy today and the sun provides me with A LOT of serotonin, I could use some sun right now. I really hope not to be void of joy going forward, I don't want to end up boring or feeling weird, which I have a bit lately. Though I can report, I am still able to smile and feel happy, which I'm glad about.

I had a bit of a headache in the morning but it was gone by late afternoon, I feel more like me in the evening. We will see how bedtime goes.

I cannot wait for the Lurasidone to settle, going to bed feels a bit rough each nice I hope this doesn't last.

I went to bed with severe anxiety unrelated to the medication and it did not react together well. I felt quite bad and struggled to go to sleep. 

January 29th 2024.

I woke up at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep for a while though I fell back asleep and woke at 8am. I felt very nauseous and my heart felt weird, like fluttery for a while but it's since improved at almost 10pm. Mentally and emotionally I feel fine, other than the upset I was from yesterday.

I had to take a gravol to combat unwellness and it's worked a bit but i feel kinda foggy.

Ive found I've gotten more sensitive to light, now that Ive increased the Lurasidone.

My unwellness was gone by the evening but I felt a bit gloomy though unrelated to the medication but that this poor sleep and med change didn't help.

I'm going to do my reporting but only until Wednesday morning, as it's been the same kind of day each day since I started the new dose Friday (feel unwell, struggle to go to bed, sleep weird, wake unwell, take a Gravol, feel better for a while, then unwell in time for bed.) I will update if anything more happens, if not I'll be back in two weeks.

January 30th 2024.

I cut back on bedtime sick feelings by eating with my medication, it wasnt perfect but it helped. 

I slept better than I have since the increase of Lurasidone. I woke at 8am and didn't have an issue with sleep. Though I feel a bit unwell again this morning.

I wanted to note, I feel a little lighter emotionally, I'm still depressed but I feel a bit different; in a good way, despite how I've been feeling overall lately.

I've found Gravol has taken up my day to day and I hope in time I won't need it. I have used it often due to another condition, so use of it is not new but it's another medication I don't want to make routine. I don't want to need it, I feel crappy.

I took a Gravol but this time it's not working, I even tried to eat with it but to no avail.

I felt pretty rough until early evening, which sucked but I'm happy to feel a bit better.

Felt rough again later in the evening but I can't pinpoint why or what to do.

I realized a lot of me being unwell is not just side effects of the new dose but all of my meds together in a stew in my body haha, I take a total of 6 medications so something is bound to be wonky.

I found I feel better after eating dinner, food might be the thing that helps me.

I went to bed feeling less rough than lately, again with help from food.

January 31st 2024.

I slept well but woke a bit out of it, a bit unwell but not too bad. I could use a Gravol and some food to be safe.

I will be back in two weeks, or if something different happens, as again it's been dizzy, lightheaded, headache and nausea for a while now. Stay tuned for my update.

February 9th 2024.

This is my two week report, since the Lurasidone increase. I had the same symptoms off and on through my time away, which is not out of the ordinary. My sleep schedule is consistent again and I'm typically back to a good sleep. Mentally and emotionally I feel pretty good but I learned the importance of down days.

I'm taking another break from updating, maybe a month or two; unless something happens. If all is well or the same, that will likely be my last report for the foreseeable future.

February 25th 2024.

I was going to wait another month to make an update but I have found something a bit different. I find with this medication increase, it heightens my PMDD and while I have less depressive episodes, I have more gloomy periods of time, where I don't feel myself. I've dealt with this for a bit now, maybe a week, before, during and after my period. I'm blessed the depressive has lessened and the suicidal has lessened, I just don't like how I'm feeling now BUT I learned the importance of ALL of my emotions. During this time, I'm barely happy, barely smiling but I try to do things anyway that bring me joy, I try for me. Though I also find it's the winter and that does NOT help, on top of most of my gloominess comes during a specific time of day, I had this issue prior, the nighttime does this to me but since the Lurasidone increase, I feel it a bit more. I'm looking forward to the season change and for me to shake this feeling, lot's going on and to factor in.

March 6th 2024.

Today I finally feel really good, fort the first time in weeks, I finally feel a bit more like myself. I have yet to get giddy or have the return of my spark but I feel great and I had missed this.

March 8th 2024.

I stayed up late last night, as I like to do but I hadn't for weeks due to the change in Lurasidone. The night went fine medically but I did wake this morning feeling a bit out of sorts and unwell but less severe than I had experienced a few weeks ago. I don't feel too bad but I also found an increase in appetite, I could use breakfast which I don't often do this early. 

The feelings of feeling myself and not feeling myself come and go, I'm no longer stuck in the gloomy state, the weird state, that I experienced recently. Today I feel a bit weird but that may be heightened by my change in sleep last night.

March 26th 2024

It's been 2 months since the increase in Lurasidone and I'm almost back to my usual self but I still struggle a bit with waking. I can't really report too much on my mental health as I was sick and mentally down for about a week, I'm just now getting back to myself a bit. I'm not back to my previous self but I'm improving and glad I can still be happy. I've spent my time doing things that bring me joy like, hanging with my loved ones, retail therapy, eating good foods, doing hobbies and doing good deeds. Not every day is up of course, I'm going through it but I'm improving. I thought I'd be happier coming out of my down week but I'm not, just happy it's over, 

September 5th 2024.

The Lurasidone was helping me fall sleep for years but for a few days now I was getting bad anxiety with chest discomfort and struggling with falling asleep, from the moment I lied down till I pass out. I figured I am lying down too soon after taking my meds, so I decided last night to take my meds on time but lie down later, it helped my anxiety but I still struggled to fall asleep. I want to try this method for a week and report back, It seems my meds though still help me sleep well, just no longer help me fall asleep.

September 12th 2024.

I tried taking my medication on time but waiting to go to bed and it did not go well, it made me quite sick if I stayed up too late. I started with one hour but found half an hour was a bit smoother but still some nights I got sick, I found it depended on how tired I was at bedtime. So I have to treat each day differently, there's no method to this but that I cannot be up more than half an hour after meds.

January 22nd 2025.

For years I typically took my medication and went to bed at 11pm 6 days a week. Tonight I will try pushing it back an hour and try it for a week, seeing how my medication and sleep goes. I wanted to try this as I struggle with sleep anxiety and feel there's not enough hours in the waking day. I will return in a week to report back

January 29th 2025.

My week did not go well physically as I  was left unwell by changing my schedule but I  was happier, sadly happiness is not enough to continue as I had been but it was a good experiment. Tonight I return to my regular schedule.