TheraBreath. Oral Rinse Review.

I experience dry mouth due to medications and because I'm a mouth breather due to a deviated septum. I started a new medication and it made my dry mouth worse. This is TheraBreath, I found great reviews on it and I wanted to give it a try myself. 

Here I have realized this is called an oral rinse, not a regular mouthwash. When I was looking for a mouthwash this came up and they call it a mouthwash, hence why I bought it. I have never tried an oral rinse before so here is my experience. I also wanted to point out it's just for dry mouth and breath. This will not replace my regular mouthwash, as that does other things, which I still need.

Today is May 23rd 2025 and I have started the oral rinse. 

It smells like mint but more earthy and a bit more like you're at the dentist and flavour while in use tastes as it smells but after use it tastes like nothing, there is not minty flavour that you'd get from mouthwashes. Though it makes my breath smell and feels like the dentist, there is almost no scent at all, which is very strange for me after years of using just my actual mouthwash.

I did want to also note the roof of my mouth feels strange and unfamiliar at this point and the roof of my mouth feels dry and uncomfortable, while the rest of my mouth is not, the product helps me produce saliva otherwise.

It's been 4 hours and the weird feeling and dryness in the roof of my mouth are now gone.

It's been 12 hours and my breath is still fresh, regardless of the eating and drinking I've been doing. I'm going to do the rinse again now for bed and I will give an update tomorrow. 

Today is May 24th 2025 and I had woken at 6am, I was coughing and choking on my saliva, the oral rinse made me produce too much saliva to keep up with how dry my mouth is overnight, it sucked but I will say it worked well and I didn't have dry mouth. Speaking of worked well, my breath stayed fresh through the night, even when I went back to bed after my rough patch, I woke the second time still with no dry mouth and fresh breath.

So in conclusion this really works but it has it's little issues, it absolutely does as stated as I consistently had no dry mouth and fresh breath for the full 12 hours after use. I will continue to use it and I would consider buying it again in the future, I rate it a 4/5.

My Experience With Bupropion.

 I've done an in-depth look at medication before, my Lurasidone and this time I'm doing Bupropion. I was given this for symptoms of PMDD but was not allowed an SSRI or regular antidepressant due to conflictions with my bipolar. I've been told this may also help my ADHD, regular depression and my seasonal depression, which I need for the harsh long winters of Canada.

I will be doing this review off and on likely for a long time, as I do with the Lurasidone. I will be updating with any changes to my health, if I increase dose in the future, how it goes with my period next month and later in the year when the winter comes and I can report on the seasonal depression.

Today is May 17th 2025 and I start the medication now, it's said to give insomnia so to hopefully limit that I take it in the morning, insomnia would battle the sleep the Lurasidone gives me. 

In this blog post we will see how it works not only with my mental health but with my other medications. I wanted to note I've been given 150mg to start. As I did with the Lurasidone, I will document my experience and in a few months I will document it's interaction with alcohol in a part 2, as not only will it be helpful for me but others.

May 17th 2025: The first pill.

I took the pill this morning and so far I'm not feeling anything other than dizziness but that's not new for me due to a condition I have. I'm off to bed and will report back with how sleep goes and how I'm feeling.

May 18th 2025:  Second pill.

The first night was a bit rough. When I was told of insomnia I thought I'd struggle to fall asleep instead I struggled with that as well as I struggled to be asleep. My eyes kept fluttering all night and I barely got sleep, I also found I woke earlier than usual. I on average sleep 8 hours a day, today I slept 6-6.5 and I absolutely do not feel well. This isn't great but I will continue to take the medication and document it. I wanted to note I did still dreamed, a very odd dream but a dream nonetheless, which I'm happy about. Also I found I sleep lighter, which I do not like; I also have a headache.

Mentally, I'm doing weird, also factoring in the less than stellar sleep. I do feel a bit odd, like calmer in a weird way but not quite robotic. As I write this, I lie in bed in a weird haze, could be mental, headache and weird sleep with lack of sleep. I just pray as the days go on I do not lose myself, lose my spark and I know I had this worry with my other medication and it took a while for me to feel like me again but right now I don't feel much like me, which is normal for this experience. 

I went back to look at my Lurasidone blog post to see how it had gone and it's almost identical of an experience after that first pill, as what I'm experiencing now.

I will say I'm still able to smile and laugh which is huge for me, I hope this continues.

As the morning continues, I still have a headache but now dizzy and nauseous, which is expected but also not new to me with another condition I have.

Since taking my second Bupropion at breakfast, I feel still fuzzy headed and my physical symptoms but I'm more mellow but not quite in a way that feels pleasant, as well as sad, almost crying and it came on suddenly. I feel I'm losing myself a bit, this is going to take some time. 

I've found food helps ease a little of the nausea, as well as some OTC medication but they don't work as well as I'd like but better than nothing. I am full of different prescription and OTC medications and it makes my tummy uncomfortable, as well as a little chest discomfort, my organs are in medication soup.

I also have no energy to do things I'd like to do, no matter how I try; I have very little brain energy; I hope tomorrow is easier.

I also wanted to note I feel my stomach is empty, no matter how much I'm eating and my stomach growls like I need to eat but I am eating, it's very strange.

My brain has been awfully quiet and its not all bad but it's really weird for me, my mind is usually always going and going wild. I then went from a quiet brain to thinking about my own death, it's been scary. Speaking of my brain, my short term memory has been bad, I'm barely hanging onto anything I think about. 

My stomach finally feels full, I had dinner and while I feel uncomfortable, I'm happy about this.

I've had my first cry, it feels very strange but I'm glad to be able to express an emotion.

I've been reflecting, would someone give up their spark for peace? because that might be what will happen, depending how long this feeling lasts but I have no idea if I'd want to or not. I realized how much of my spark was me fucked up, how much fucked up me made up my personality and now I feel quiet and strange but a lot less fucked up and it's only day 2. 

I've decided to enjoy what I'm experiencing right now, my brain is quieter, for the second time in my life. We will see what happens but I'm gunna have a nice time, despite it feeling new and weird and scary. I grieve myself, my brain is so sick and hurts me more than it doesn't AND RIGHT NOW I'm not dealing with that, this new medication has me simmering, I'm just screaming inside because I cant feel this way without the meds and I'm mad about it.

I couldn't describe before how I was feeling from it but it's similar to a head high or like when you have the flu and your brain is foggy but it's what I've been needing. I will say though it's less like a high and more like a numbing or dumb down haha. Or more specifically if someone was brushing my forehead with a horse brush hahaha! I'm loving the quiet but not the sluggish, I could scream. I feel like I lost some braincells, I feel like a baby who can't communicate and I'm frustrated.

I cannot believe I've been on the Bupropion for two days and I've been through the 5 stages of grief. 

I have been experiencing constipation and many others who have started the medication have said this typically lasts 1-2 weeks so we will see.

Soon it's time for bed and I'm dreading it, as last night was pretty bad. I pray for better sleep. The Lurasidone made me sleep well but it's since been ruined, thanks to this new medication. Funny I had a bad being awake and good sleep, now it's the opposite, i guess its not so bad, I was tired of bad being awake. I just don't like sleeping poorly. I've found out it's due to mixing the medications as one gives me insomnia, the other makes me drowsy. Since this is the case, I'm gunna try not taking the Lurasidone tonight and see what happens. See if my sleep is better or worse with just the Bupropion, without the two meds in my body battling. Its just me and insomnia tonight haha. I already miss sleeping soundly, I've lived most of my life well, getting uninterrupted and long hours of sleep, I was so blessed.

May 19th 2025: Third pill.

So I slept but roughly, my brain was unhappy without the Lurasidone and my brain on the Bupropion alone couldn't tell I slept, I've never felt this before. I didn't dream anything I recall and I woke up feeling like I got hit by a bus. So sleeping with both meds AND with just the one, sucked. The only bright-side was I "slept" longer this morning than the night before but I don't feel I slept at all. I also found with the Bupropion I woke up with sore eyes but when I take both I get a headache, both are not nice. So in conclusion, I'm in trouble either way and I don't know what's worse. I'm lying here, my brain and I are very confused. That was the most un-sleep I've ever slept. My two medications don't go together.

I just took my third pill, I feel my usual side affects but mentally I'm better today so far, than yesterday. I will say I feel a constant "head high" and it's not as fun as I'd want it to be, there is no bliss to this, just weird.

I don't know if only I've noticed but YES I'm feeling more dumbed down due to the medication BUT I'm feeling smarter, I don't know how it works but it's how I've felt since yesterday.

The Bupropion has forced me to face everything, feel everything and it's been insane for me.

Speaking of insane, all I needed to help me not miss my ex's was taking Bupropion, I'm only on day 3 but I hope this lasts forever, this has been the greatest part so far, even more than the quiet brain I've been needing.

I've been crying in happiness, I've release almost all the grudges I've ever had, I've never been so free from agony before, I've waited 17 years for this. I will not be reconnecting with people but I'm very let it go now. It's wonderful.

Speaking of wonderful, I'm no longer worried about losing my spark like I was yesterday. What else is wonderful is I still have my range of emotions, I can still laugh and cry. I was worried after yesterday that I'd be a robot but it didn't happen. 

I just don't like it feels like someone's pushing on my head, especially my forehead it's uncomfortable. Speaking of uncomfortable I'm still in this weird trance, I'm not used to this feeling, the agony has stopped after 21 years and it's unfamiliar but feels right. It's quiet and weird but not in a bad way. I'm me still just quieter, more relaxed; like a soup simmering.

I did want to note I don't have energy for much activities, I'm tired especially mentally. My brain is on low power mode. I am hoping as I adjust I'll be able to do all the things I could before and/or more but I did manage to take out the garbage.

I can admit this evening I feel somber but almost sullen, it's weird. I understand I have to get adjusted to the medication and that it's only day 3. This has been a rollercoaster if I'm honest and has felt so surreal of an experience.

I have for years been battling passive suicidal ideation and since I started the Bupropion I'm less suicidal but most of my feelings or thoughts of death right now are "I am going to die and yes it's scary but I'm going to accept it" while in this trance, it's not a nice feeling though but better than the angry and upset desire to die that I was experiencing before. I hope it passes soon, along with the other issues I've been having.

One thing I've noticed as the day goes on, I've lost desire for sex. I was a little interested earlier but now I have no physical or mental energy or desire. If you know me personally or online, I already had a low sex drive for many medical reasons and I'm grayace but this is a step further away from sex than ever before, we will see how this continues on as I adjust to the medication.

I mentioned my brain and stomach not communicating when I'm hungry, well my stomach is now doing a better job at alerting me when hungry and I'm fortunate to say while yes I have lack of appetite but not to the extent that I do not eat. I am still able to eat but I find I get full faster and often my appetite is gone when I'm in the middle of eating but I am still eating and that's very important.

I want to admit, I still do not feel like a robot but I feel like my personality is no longer mine, I'm playing someone else's like a role or I'm in a new body. It's very strange. No one else can tell something is wrong by the way I move, act and speak but I feel really out of place. Though sometimes I get random feelings like "this IS me" like little glimpses and I suddenly feel less in a trance, typically after I eat, or at other random times, which makes me feel better. Speaking of my trance, I now feel it in other parts of my head and not as much in my forehead, I hope this continues.

I'm currently going back and forth between suicidal and being scared to die, I want to cry about it but I can't, nothing is falling.

I'm clearly more out of my drug induced trance tonight because I'm thinking about things again that are dark and heavy. We will see how tomorrow goes.

I feel better right now than I've been in the last 2 days despite the darkness that sometimes befalls me.

I realized the Bupropion gives me insomnia if I mix it with the Lurasidone but if I take it alone it shuts my brain off in a bad feeling way, not insomnia at all.

May 20th 2025: Fourth pill.

I took both meds last night and I slept. It was greater than the two nights before. I only woke once in the night, slept more comfortably and I had a dream. Sure I was up too early but that was the most normal sleep I've had since starting the meds. I was still tired but to me it's a win.

I did manage to fall back sleep and again slept well. Things have been successful in the sleep department, other than feeling sick when I woke up the second time. 

Speaking of how I'm feeling, I was still more out of my trance, as I was last night, now it just feels like a bit of a hangover but I have yet to take my fourth pill so we will see how I feel.

I have just taken my fourth pill so we will see how I feel. as the day goes on.

The day is progressing and I am no longer in hangover feeling, I'm back in a trance but this feels a bit pleasant, like when you're tipsy but not as fun. Though I do still have dizziness, lightheadedness and nausea.

I've gotten a little pop to drink, so we will see how a little caffeine interacts with my new medication but it's a very little bit to start. So it has increased my headache a little bit, not great but good to test out.

I got quite sick this evening at random or maybe not at random, it's likely the meds but also I find my body attacks me when I'm hungry even when I don't know I'm hungry. This medication make me feel like I'm very hungry at random. Update: I found out it was due to hunger, that I didn't know I had until my body attacked.

I wanted to note, I'm so blessed to have my emotions, I made myself laugh so hard I almost fainted, it felt amazing. It was not at random but it was something so silly, no one else thought it was as funny as I did.

I noticed over the last few days, I have less of an internal monologue and I'm more likely to say something that I couldn't think about first. Before the medication I thought a lot all the time about anything and I'd overthink things and repeat something in my head many times before saying it, its really changed but not completely. Part of me is happy, while the other part of me is looking for thoughts that are just not there, I can still think about things but it's different. I have to admit it feels good sometimes but other times I feel scared and I wanna scream inside but I can't. It's so very different than the life I've lived. When I'm not in my trance I feel better, which comes and goes.

I cannot wait to adjust to these meds, my trance is in my forehead again tonight. I prefer it in like earlier, in other parts of my head. In these last 4 days it feels like bipolar on drugs but quieter because parts of my brain are on low power mode.

I mentioned prior that the medication makes me constipated, well I went to the bathroom twice today and that's the most I've gone in a day, since starting the Bupropion. I am hoping it continues to improve. I take medication to help me with my bathroom issues but it's struggling to work against the new medication.

Once in a while I'm still suicidal but it's a very different feeling than the suicidal I was before AND I'm less frequently suicidal but I really try not to think about it or trigger it on my own. I'll explain how it's different: previously I felt suicidal in agony and wanting to escape the agony yet I'm scared BUT on the meds I'm suicidal in I feel lost inside so I'm ready to die and I'm in acceptance yet still a little scared. When I was 16 they put me on an antidepressant that made my bipolar worse and my thoughts worse but I wanted to say again, mine has lessened, this is just me adjusting, it's only day 4 and I only pray it improves. I'm also happy to say this form of suicidal is a lot less scary.

May 21st 2025: Fifth pill.

I slept well in terms of only waking twice in the night but I did not having any weird or bad sleeping symptoms but I slept peacefully and a healthy amount of time, though I did dream twice but have found my dreams for the last 5 days have been strange, more often strange than usual but not any bad dreams so far. I did wake feeling weird in my eyes, like they did not want to adjust, even with my glasses on and I was either still tired or over tired but it's since fixed itself.

I mentioned earlier about the medication and constipation, well I was able to go this morning without a "problem" but I wanted to report my stool has been strange for a few days. The constipation sometimes leads to blood in stool which is normal, especially starting a new medication, this has happened to me before with many medications, as well as I've had blood in stool due to IBS. I also have had strange coloured stools lately, ranging from weird dark shades to weird light shades. Today it was similar to terra cotta meets a light army brown, this can also be caused by certain medications, including Pepto Bismol which I did take recently for nausea and I will not be taking it again. I then discovered that a fuzzy or fluffy looking stool which I have had for a few days, indicates the stool may be passing too quickly through the colon and/or signs of mild diarrhea which is actually what I had been dealing with this morning.

With this medication and most of my other medications, comes with the side affect of dry mouth, I also have this issue because while I sleep I'm a mouth breather due to a deviated septum. My breath typically is the most dry at night, during sleep. I have been looking into better mouthwashes and have came across Therabreath, it has good reviews and it's probably better than the mouthwash I'm using now. I will be making another blog review for it later on.

Mentally I am doing better as the morning progresses, I still have my usual symptoms of headache, lightheaded and nausea.

I've found myself hungry earlier today than most days, maybe due to the large bowel movement and change in bowel movement that I had today, my stomach is also tired from it and a bit sore. Update: I had a snack and then a little breakfast and it has improved some of my symptoms.

I've also found today I have been in a more cuddly affectionate mood, like my old self. For the last few days I've actually been very anti physical affection and wanted to be kept to myself and not be touched. I hope this continues, it feels nice.

I made progress, I'm proud of me. This morning I made a meal, I did scrambled eggs and mushrooms; it wasn't much but I'm happy I cooked something for the first time in 4 days.

I have a mean headache/pressure on my head, especially the back of my head but I'm thankful it's not mostly in my forehead like lately. Update: my trance and symptoms have lessened a bit since I've had lunch.

My phobia of death has lessened a lot, when I'm suicidal but battle my phobia in return, it now lasts minutes, a lot quicker than before the meds AND I haven't thought about a single person around me dying, I used to do that almost all day every day, it's been peaceful.

I'm proud of me again today, I just cooked a full meal for dinner, I made chicken taco rice. While I cooked I felt the most me and least sick I've been in days. I hope the night continues this way. Never mind I spoke too soon, I have gotten more sick. I took a Gravol and I hope it helps, as I'm not doing the Pepto ever again. 

I have a new symptom, my legs feel like jelly. The jelly legs may be from feeling sick OR the bowel issues I've been having. The medication causes constipation but I've been having kinda the opposite issue. Update: it improved after I went to the bathroom, so I seemed to have found the cause. Having diarrhea can cause dehydration and that can cause jelly legs.  I didn't think I needed more water but I guess I need more. I wanted to note, tonight I've been more gassy.

I've been on the med 5 days, sick for 4. It feels like I've lost track of all time, it feels like I've been sick from this for a long time. The days are so long. Before the medication, my days were so short and it stressed me out but this isn't what I wished for haha.

I'm less in a trance tonight and I caught myself being bitter about something I'm over when I'm in more of a trance. Old me coming through haha! Oops. Do you think you can feel happy or bitter about something you no longer love or hate? Hmm. Water under the bridge but I still remember. As the days go on, I'm less often in deep and uncomfortable trances, its great. I pray this continues, despite old me still making an appearance on occasion but I've come so far, even in the last 5 days.

As the days go on, I'm less often in deep and uncomfortable trances, it's great. I pray this continues, despite old me still making an appearance on occasion haha but I've come so far, even in the last 5 days.

I will absolutely say that this whole experience has been the craziest thing to ever happen to me both in a good way and a bad way and that's saying a lot because I've lived a soap opera for the last 31 years.

May 22nd 2025: Sixth pill: 

I slept well. I even had a normal dream for the first time in days. Yes, I woke with a headache but that's okay.

I have a good update: my family cat came and woke me for the first time since I got sick, he has let me rest which I like. He's sensing I'm doing better, at least I hope so. Some would be offended not to be cared much for by their cat, until this point but I was not in a place to be bothered by him. I mean he comes to check on me each day but he hasn't come banging on my door early in the morning lately, that's what I'm happy about haha but I'm still happy he's ready to do it again, even though it is annoying. Maybe I'm improving in a way he can sense. I hope so.

I still have a headache and I'm a bit lightheaded, nauseous and in a little trance but otherwise I'm pretty good. I need to quickly eat something before it all gets worse. Update: I did a bit of snacking, had some tea biscuits, trail mix and a little bag of carrots. I'm feeling a little better but I'm more in a trance which typically doesn't happen after I eat but today's weird I guess. 

I'm happy I feel less sick now that I've eaten and been to the bathroom, I'm also happy not to have constipation or the runs anymore, may this continue. I had been commenting on my stool, today it was light in colour, like the light army brown I mentioned prior but it was not diarrhea, just soft. Update: Never mind I do not feel better now that I've eaten and been to the bathroom, I feel rough.

I took my medication, let's see how today goes, it's already sucked pretty bad but on the bright side sleep went well other than the headache.

Today's rough but I'm so grateful that the bad forehead trances are seemingly gone.

I've had to alter my eating schedule somewhat and snack more, as I'm hungry to a sick degree, earlier than I used to.

I had lunch and a snack, my stomach is upset, are you still hungry or are you full?

My health has been up and down but easier today and yesterday. All I can do is get through it.

Today I got mad for the first time since starting the new medication, it felt real, it felt me.

Tonight I've felt the best I have in 5 days, I'm still a bit sick of course but better. Sadly it comes and goes on a whim, just gotta ride the waves.

I know I'm feeling much more like me because I have bad anxiety about something going on and I have barely had any anxiety in days, it's a lot.

I gotta admit, sometimes when I am not in a deeper trance and I miss it, especially nights like these when I recall bad memories that make me mad or sad. Though I am often tired of being in any degree of a trance, even a light one like today.

May 23rd 2025: Seventh pill.

Sadly I went to bed last night feeling mentally awful, I was recalling the recent death of my cat, as well as having anxiety about my mom dying, which she is not currently. These are things I thought about often prior to the medication, though I wouldn't often think about them at bed time but instead during the day. I also felt discomfort in my chest as I was winding down, of course anxiety.

I had a good sleep. I didn't wake once that I recall, I also had 3 or 4 dreams (I don't recall ever having that many in one night, I've been dreaming much more). I went from having 1-2 dreams prior to now 3-4 dreams, once in a while though no dreams. One of the dreams was a bit sexual, I've not dreamt like that in a while. None of the dreams were bad, though two were a bit bothersome. I will say I woke with pain in the back of my head and neck.  Ouch. This is my first sleep in a while where I'm in pain like this, as well as my ears were ringing when I woke up, great.

Recently I mentioned starting the new mouthwash, I am doing that today. I will be of course making a separate blog post for it.

I felt pretty good medically until an hour and a half later, so now I feel like shit haha. I could probably use water and a snack to help reduce sickness, as usual.

I'm in a moderate trance today, giving me the usual sickness symptoms but less than yesterday I've found myself mentally alright but I'm laughing more; as I mentioned before I think I've gotten funnier, which is cool.

This evening my trance has lessened, as well as my headache and sickness symptoms and I hope they continue this way the rest of the night. 

I'm now in a mild trance with little headache and I feel less sick :). I've not been this good in almost a week, not quite there but I'm happy. I also think my appetite is normal again.

It's almost bedtime and I'm feel shitty mentally, like my old self and it's not nice. I also often find myself not wanting to go to bed but not wanting to be awake, this is me right now. I've struggled for a while during this experience and prior, I'm uncomfortable internally. The medication has helped in certain ways but when I'm not in a trance, parts of old me are still present, often unpleasant parts but I cant say it's always unpleasant parts of old me showing up, ah can't have the good without some bad eh? 

I've developed a weird feeling and ache in my tummy and hip bones, it may be due to the constipation or ???? I'm not sure if I've ever experienced a feeling quite like this. Strange.

April 24th 2025:

I am happy to report that the feeling is gone by morning, just met with tenderness instead.

I slept well, only waking once in the night and I only had 2 dreams, which was more comfortable than the night before. I sadly didn't sleep very long but it was due to the oral rinse I'm currently reviewing. Otherwise I'm feeling fine. I'm hoping to go back to sleep a little longer. We will see.

I was able to go back to sleep but I have now "overslept", story of my life. This usually makes me sick, we will see as I readjust as I JUST woke up. I wanted to note, this is the most I've slept in over a week, which is either a good thing or a bad thing, we will see lol.

Update: it made me feel more sick than I'd like and gave me a headache, this is typically what happens if I sleep "too much".

I find the mornings are the most rough for me medically these days, so I hope to only improve as the day goes on. I am sick due to "over sleeping" and my usual sickness lately. I am only in a moderate trance, I find the mornings lately give me the most trance but prior it was an on and off thing through the day, each day. So in that regard I am improving. I also have not had a deep trance in I think in a few days which is wonderful but I also kinda miss it haha.

Since starting the medication a week ago I have lost a total of 5lbs, which to some can be great but I personally don't have much weight to lose or can afford to lose. 

Here is where I will post this, so you can catch up on this experience but I will continue to update it as I go, either as I experience things or return the next day to update, so if you'd like to now follow in real time, you can check each day for updates.

I will say, it's so weird being outside, every time I go to work or take out the trash, I FEEL WEIRD haha. Like I'm unsure of the world or how to get anywhere or do anything, the trance is strong when I do this. I have yet to go out and do say errands, hang out with others or even go to the store. It's like half of my brain knows how to take out the trash but the other half of my brain is lost and they don't communicate, I just have to trust I know how to do it and do it, so I do.

I was hoping to be in only a mild trance, now that I'm into the afternoon but I took out a lot of garbage today and that made it worse, I hope I can now relax and see if my trance improves.

So my trance did not improve because I have been angry this afternoon, so angry and I haven't been this angry in over a week. You can tell I am feeling more myself right now. I wanted to have a drink so bad but I think it's too soon.

I wasn't interested in sex at all for the last few days, it has returned a bit, I could use it to de-stress but I'm not sure I have the physical ability still, due to the medication but I am not in the place to do it anyway; I just think it's cool I have a little interest again.

I'm feeling better now but I got so mad earlier, I got a headache in the back of my head haha.

I am feeling a bit sick still and I did not enjoy dinner much, my appetite was in a puddle.

Feeling more sick at bedtime and I had a panic attack, over something unrelated but it was the icing on the cake, last night was rough.

May 25th 2025.

I woke twice and had 3 or 4 dreams again, I'm exhausted mentally but otherwise slept well. I read it's very common to have many dreams in one night BUT I have not had more than 2 that I recall, until I started the medication.

I got a mean headache, in a moderate trance, feeling a little sick and my tinnitus was going crazy, nice.

One of my friends lost their one dog today, I was able to experience grief with them, this was my first time experiencing this kinda thing since starting the Bupropion. I am "happy" to say it went "well" I was able to cry and express pain properly, as I did before. Fun fact: I'm allergic to my own tears, so having this cry was quite painful for me but it wasn't severe this time.

Since starting the Bupropion, I have experienced very mild Petechiae (tiny pinpricks on the skin), which is common for various medications, including this one. It is not itchy or painful and again very mild. I have it on my wrists and legs. If it gets worse, spreads or comes with other symptoms that may then be a cause for concern, otherwise it is harmless.

I'm going out this evening to run errands nearby, despite being in a moderate trance. I have not been out out in over a week, so I hope it goes well.

I'm going out this evening to run errands nearby, despite being in a moderate trance. I have not been out out in over a week, so I hope it goes well.

It was so strange to maneuver the stores and interact with people. I felt messed up standing in the grocery store, I was only grabbing buns but I absolutely couldn't do a regular grocery shop. I then also bought a birthday card and I absolutely could not read or process much, I grabbed a card and it ended up being a bad choice when I got home and looked at it. I feel like I didn't remember how to do ANYTHING yet I was still doing them with the part of my brain that wasn't communicating with me. I was so overwhelmed with everything around me, I'm proud of me still.

May 26th 2025.

I woke once in the night and only had two dreams, one each time which is a lot nicer than than lately when I'd have 4 dreams, it's not nice for my brain and I used to not dream so much. Though I'm so happy my new medication and the Lurasidone are now working together for bedtime. I'm just salty I dreamt of one of my ex's this morning and it was a messed up dream but otherwise sleep was a success.

I'm having a little glass of an energy drink, I have not drank an energy drink in over a week, so we will see how it goes with my medication. Update: I'm done the drink and my chest feels tight but not painful and my stomach feels like a bit sore and like a ship on the waves. So nothing bad happened so far but it felt very strange. Update I'm feeling better now since the energy drink earlier, so I can confirm nothing bad happened.

I have yet today to mention how I'm feeling medically and mentally but I can say my sickness and trance are mild today and mentally I'm doing better, so far.   

The other day I reported that I had a weird feeling or pain in my stomach and hip bones, I thought it could be related to the medication but it was reproductive. So all is well there.

I thought I'd improve as the day went on but dinner didn't help me, I feel more sick now and mentally I'm not doing too hot either. 

Tonight my trance is mild but my sickness is moderate, I am struggling to breathe from the nausea, it sucks it's because I'm constipated again, great. Update: I just went and my nausea is down a bit but still not great. I've taken a Tums and a Gravol as they often help settle my stomach. Update: I just YAWNED and almost threw up on my keyboard, nice. 

May 27th 2025.

I'm exhausted mentally and physically, I feel sick today, the usual.

In the last few days I've had 3 sexual dreams, I didn't experience these dreams as frequently before the medication.

I slept pretty well, I don't recall if I woke at all during the night and I had a dream maybe two.

I was asked how I slept well yet already feel mentally and physically exhausted. Well due to various things, I was late making breakfast and rushing to make that, had an exhaustive conversation with someone today, hauled a heavy box of groceries downstairs and I've been sick for almost 2 weeks, so it's been a lot for me. Update: I felt better after eating, so I'm glad it helped.

My symptoms and trance today seems mild but almost moderate, as I rest I hope it improves.

May 28th 2025.

So I've mentioned having a few sex dreams and more frequently since starting the medication, well today was my first bad one. Yikes. I woke up with a headache from it. Nice.

I feel so tired already and I have only done laundry and a bit of work so far, I slept well otherwise but the bad dream left me feeling more tired than I'd have liked to be this early in the morning. Speaking of laundry I'm happy to have done it, I've been putting it off but I'm proud of me. 

Health wise, I slept well physically and today my trance and sickness are so far mild but it's hard because my headache is giving me a bit more nausea. Update: I've had my headache for the last 4.5 hours, great. My headache lasted 6.5 hours then it was gone for 3 hours and it's back, great.

I'm teetering between mild and moderate sickness and trance tonight. I'm tired.

May 29th 2025.

Slept well last night, other than a weird dream and another ex bf of mine was in it, this has become common since starting the new medication but was not a bad dream like the other night. So far I've dreamt of 3 of my ex's.

I was feeling better physically and mentally until about 11:30am, now I feel a bit sick, I also have cramps that I don't know what from. Nice.

I've had many ex's but there are 9 that were significant in my life, I've so far dreamt of 3 of them due to the medication.

Overall today's been a pretty good health day, I have had mild sickness and trance, so far.

May 30th 2025.

I'm going to leave my updates here for now, as I am most often mildly sick and in a trance that comes and goes. Nothing much else is going on, I'm no longer in a severe trance and I'm doing better in the sleep department. I will update if anything comes up or when I've reached my next period, to see how my PMDD is on the medication.

June 3rd 2025.

I mentioned a few days ago that I had dreamt of 3 of my ex's, well today makes 4 out of 9.

I've been mentally rough off and on as my usual self prior to the medication, it's just a bit slower and quieter and if I think about it it's still freaky, so I try not to.

Physically I've spent my last few days mildly sick and in a mild trance any moderate sickness though comes and goes depending on the day and what triggers it.

I have been battling again with constipation and my prescription medication Dicetel has been struggling, I am thinking of increasing my dosage but that would cost me, so for now I will start and OTC medication I have on hand, that I forgot about and I could've used in the last two weeks oops haha.

June 5th 2025.

I've been sleeping better than before though the odd hiccup, mentally it's weird parts of my brain are off or dim but it's otherwise fine other than my usual self, I'm myself again in terms of mental illnesses and emotions and medically I'm still mildly sick and in a trance but it comes and goes but I can say the worst is over.

Today I had my first emotional breakdown since starting the medication, it felt very me and I was able to be furious and cry angrily, while unpleasant I'm glad I could do it again.

June 6th 2025.

Since starting the Bupropion my days feel longer and I'm thrilled because prior to this my days were so fast and I felt awful about it, now that my brain has slowed down so had my days. Though I'll say the beginning of the month always feels the longest to me then it speeds up so we will see.

Update on the OTC medication for constipation: it really worked well the first day I took it, it stated it would take 24 hours to work but for me it worked in 3 hours haha, though the days following that it did not help me at all, so I discontinued use and only plan to use it again if I really need, as my constipation hasn't been as severe as the weeks prior, I'm just having less bowel movements but not anything unhealthy so far, this also means the medication alongside my IBS does not cause me to digest my food at an unhealthy pace as I was doing before, so this is a brightside.

I wanted to note that I have less desire for things that take a lot of brain power, which may or may not be a good thing. For those who may know me, know I play the Sims 4 religiously, or I did prior to the medication, since starting the medication I couldn't play much and despite improving health-wise, I still feel less energy or even maybe even desire, this is both sad but also good for me haha.

I jinxed myself, I am very constipated tonight, I am actually bloated from it and I rarely experience this, I had a heavy dinner which was the cause of this alongside the medication, it doesn't feel great and isn't great for my body but it looks great haha. The last OTC medication I took only worked the first day, so I'm trying a different one tomorrow, let's see what happens.

I thought about how this medication caused me to let go of my ex's, not feeling love or hatred but I realized it also helped me let go of all my regrets.

June 7th 2025.

The OTC constipation medication worked very well but was a bit rough on my body if I'm honest, I think I could've halved the dosage haha. If you check out my blog I posted a bit of a review on it, if you're interested.

I wanted to reflect on something, that I mentioned prior I was less interested in sex and physical affection since starting the Bupropion than I was prior, well I have also less desire and energy for a romantic relationship, more than I was prior but this time I'm more relaxed about it and not battling upset that I felt being grayaro torn between not wanting love and wanting love, I am still a little torn but a lot quieter about it in my brain.

June 8th 2025.

I have been a bit off the last 2/3 days, I'd barely eat until about 1pm sometimes later, I simply wouldn't be hungry or just forget to eat and if you know me personally, that's a bad sign. I'm sure it's from the medication but I hope to be myself again soon.

June 10th 2025.

Yesterday I was able to eat as I did before my little hiccup I mentioned the other day, I had a meal in the morning and today I'm hungry again at brunch time, so I'm feeling better in that regard.

I'm excited to report that I had no symptoms of PMDD prior or at the start of my period, which started today. I do know not every month of my period was giving me the worst symptoms of PMDD especially being suicidal or feeling deep dread, so I will have to continue updating on my period as the months go on, to see if it continues this way, I hope so.

I wanted to reflect on something, since taking the Bupropion, I am so much happier and giddier to be by myself or in my own company, I had loved myself the last 2 years but recently I've been so in love with my own peace and I'm thrilled to spend every single day with my favourite person, me. 

June 11th 2025.

My sickness only comes and goes but I'm not often sick due to the medication anymore, as for the trances they come and go as well but are very mild and I'm happy to say these trances finally feel good.

I was in a down mood last night reflecting on how I should've done this decades ago, I could've used it. One can mourn what never was, not just what is lost. but I will say I don't regret now.

June 12th 2025.

I'm worried that my love for food is dampened by the medication  and that's not fun for me as a food blogger but luckily I have years of content in a folder to still upload so I'm not short on content to post. I feel my desire to eat, to enjoy the foods I enjoy and my appetite has suffered quite a bit. I will say though I don't plan to give up food blogging, It's been a passion of mine for almost 10 years now.

I am feeling dread but reflecting on things, not due to my period, so so far I still have not experienced PMDD this month. My periods are typically short but that varies though I'll see how it goes. I wanted to note that I experience the same things as I do with PMDD but they feel very different, I've been in dread and a little suicidal tonight but unrelated, I can feel the difference.

I've thought about how much I miss being in deep trances, all my worries were sleeping. I have let go of some of my worries with the medication but I feel still the heavy weight of all my other burdens and things I carry, especially things I shouldn't carry or carry anymore.

Ghost. Sour Patch Kids Blue Raspberry Energy Drink Review.

 

I've posted a few reviews from this brand (search them on my blog) and today I'm doing the sour patch kids blue raspberry. I have to admit, I'm late to post this review because 1. I've bought dozens of these since I first had one and 2. they are discontinuing the flavour.

Tastes just like sour patch kids without the sour, also tastes like a blue snack pack jello, its so nice and the more I drink it, I love it. It's liquid candy and it's so fruity. I will miss you, Ghost's greatest flavour, I rate it 5/5.

Dr Oetker. Suprema. Salame Romano Pizza Review.

 

I've done many reviews of this brand (search it on my blog) and today I'm trying one of their new pizzas from their Suprema line, this is salami.

It's soo boring, not as good as some of their other pizzas from other lines, there is nothing that good about any of it, not the crust, sauce, cheeese and the salami is the best part but I wish it was spicy, I have to admit I didn't taste the cheese, they skimped on it. I would not buy it or likely eat it again and I rate it 3/5.

Ghost. Warheads Sour Green Apple Energy Drink Review.

 

I've done a few reviews of this brand and warheads green apple (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the energy drink, the other day it was a soda.

This is delicious, world's better than the soda and I'm happy I tried it, I find Ghost makes some phenomenal flavours. It's perfectly sour, smells divine and the flavour is like liquid candy, again delicious. I think this is one of my favourite flavours of theirs. I would absolutely drink it and buy it again and I rate it 4.5/5. I said I would buy and drink it again but we will see how it makes me feel, hopefully not like like the soda review, that was rough haha.

Update: I got just a slight fuzzy head but no other issues, great.

Warheads. Sour Green Apple Soda Review.

 

This is my second review of this brand (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the sour green apple soda.

I didn't find it too sour mouth wise but this gave me a headache and acid reflux haha, great. It's not a nice flavour either, overall a disappointing drink. I would not buy it or drink it again and I rate it 2/5.

Tim Hortons. Blueberry Cheesecake Timbit Review.

 

I've done many reviews from this restaurant (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the blueberry cheesecake timbit.

It tastes good but the filling is weird for me texturally, not a bad timbit just not for me. I don't think I'd buy or eat this again and I rate it 3/5.

Tim Hortons. Chocolate Chunk Brookie Review.

 

I've done many reviews from this restaurant (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the chocolate chunk brookie. It's a chocolate chunk cookie with a brownie in it. 

Their chocolate chunk cookies kinda suck, they don't taste that good and they are often too tough, this was one of those times. I gotta say the brownie was lovely, it was the best part of the brookie but the flavours went pretty well together. Not a bad brookie, I don't think I'd buy it again but I'd eat it if offered and I rate it 3.5/5.

Tim Hortons. Bacon Egg Loaded Box Review.

 

I've done many reviews from this restaurant (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the bacon egg loaded box. This box has scrambled eggs, hashbrown and bacon, with Chipotle sauce (but got BBQ this time as it was for someone else). 

It's good, I just felt the eggs could use salt and pepper, veggies and cheese for a real loaded experience, like a western scramble that I'd typically make myself.

I want to try the sausage one, I hope I can before they are gone. I would buy this and eat this again and I rate it 4/5.

Ice Cream 2. Strawberry Frozen Yogurt Review.

 

I've done a couple reviews from this place (search them on my blog) and today I'm trying the strawberry frozen yogurt.

It was disappointing, very boring it almost had no flavour, tasted kinda fake though it might not be. I would absolutely not eat this or buy this again and I rate it 2.5/5.

Symposium Cafe. Burger and Fries Review.

 

This is my first review from review restaurant but I had been here twice before. Today I got the single burger with fries and gravy.

The burger was great, it was small but tasted lovely, fresh toppings, pretty good bun and had a nice burger sauce on it, was light on the sauce but still was good, this is my favourite sit-down restaurant burger so far and I rate it 4.5/5.

The fries were great, nicely salted, great texture and were like a typical pub fry, they would be great for poutine, I rate them 4.5/5.

Lastly the gravy was pretty good but something about it I didn't love, not a bad gravy and I would order it again, even as a poutine, I rate it 3.5/5.